Watching Julie and Julia

Yesterday my Daddy made a comment about how Jerry (his step-dad; his real dad passed away from lung cancer when I was in 5th grade, his mom remarried my sophomore year of high school), better stay around for my grandma and that he needs to get healthier but loves dessert too much haha (it was all in a loving spirit). So I, being the health freak I am, decided to show Jerry that you can eat all the dessert you want if you make it healthy! So this morning I made a fabulous batch of oatmeal cookies-kaela style, meaning applesauce, splenda brown sugar, etc. Can I side track and say what a blessing my grandma (dads mom) does not have to go through this alone? What a plan God had to bring such a solid, smart, strong-faithed man like Jerry into my grandmas life-it isnt too bad either that they are willing to help get me and taytay through college on the financial aspect too.

Afterwards I went out for my run, I have been due for a threshold run but have not felt very strong (emotionally and physically) to focus on a workout like that, but I have had the strength to do several distance runs at a very good pace. As I have been on my runs I have been listening to a great playlist of comforting worship songs, and the same phrase keeps coming up in several songs and tugging on my heart and my legs "I lift my eyes onto the hills, where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth". Well at home here there are hills every which way I look, and these hills have been giving me strength every time I look at them, a little mental push to take that next step physically and keep back the tears emotionally. So anyways what I am trying to say is that I ran a great 30 minute threshold today! I think what did it was right at the beginning I looked up to the mountains and I literally felt this rush of power, of God's love, transcend into my tired little body. I ended my run at the hospital to say hey to Daddy and Mom, but he was pretty out of it cuz of the pain meds so I let him sleep, but he is quite the funny guy-he was trying so hard to chat with me but he kept dozing off haha, oh dad.

Tonight I was not feeling very well so I had a good healthy dinner and am watching Julie and Julia while I blog this (probably the motivation for my blog haha-and so I don't have to do annoying facebook notes whenever I feel there is something I need to share). At the beginning of the movie Julie Powell says this after a hard day at work when she decided to make a chocolate cream pie, ""You know what I love about cooking? I love that after a day when nothing is sure and when I say nothing, I mean nothing. You can come home and absolutely know that if you add egg yolks to chocolate and sugar and milk, it will get thick. That's such a comfort." Amen sista, thats how I felt after making (and eating several) of my healthy healthy cookies. Expect lots of baking this semester at huddle group xc ladies!

But you know, baking is not the only thing that can be consistent. Do I need to even point out the obvious? Christ is really the only thing in our lives that is going to be consistent, that is going to be there for us day in and day out. Even on the suckiest of sucky days, when we faceplant and land an inch away from a pile of dog crap (this happened monday before all this crap went down, but you get the point).

Text from my mom at Midnight on new years eve "Love you k la i know God has the next year under control even though it feels like our world is falling apart right now" so true so so so true.