I have an overwhelming urge to thank you right now, this second, otherwise i would send a cute letter:)
You really have no idea how much your random encouraging letters and loving texts, mean to me. It has been really hard the last year trying to adjust to not having roommates or friends in constant communication and checking in on me. College was so wonderful having everyone in such close vicinity. Sometimes I just feel like I am a burden to friends with all that I carry around in my heart with my dad, so I don't talk about it or don't ask for prayer or tell people the truth with how he is doing and how I am doing, I don't want to be a bummer. I just feel like it has gotten to a point where people are sick of hearing it. I mean, don't get me wrong, even I get sick of talking about it and answering questions about it at times.But the fact is, the cancer is here and it is my reality and new normal; so just like with training for a race, you can't just ignore the fact that you signed up, you have to embrace it, train and work with what you've got, and it is a growing and learning process, ya we get injured along the way sometimes, but that is part of it, you have to let the pain pass as it comes, and know that it will pass.
Anyways, your communication really reminds me that you care and are praying for me and my family. Sometimes I feel like my friends have forgotten about me, I know they have not, but it just feels like I am giving more than I am getting [gosh I sound like such a selfish child as i say that].
So I realized tonight I need to cherish the people I do have who are constant and genuine. And remember, we are called to love God and love others, everything else will fall into it's place if we do so, so I am going to keep doing so.
Ephesians 5:1-2
