the course is marked, the gun has gone off, and my legs are taking flight...

ya this is the kid the hospital volunteers are swooning over...
this pic is the theme of this blog...

1)Ok so funny story of the day...
My mom's friend came to the hospital to visit Daddy and her daughter who volunteers at the hospital came along. I guess the daughter was just down in the break room and two other volunteer girls were in there talking about some super cute boy on the 5th floor...well my brother's ego just went up another 5 levels, because yes, it was Taytay the girls were talking about. Oh dear I don't know what to about this kid haha...

2)Tonight I was lucky enough to go on a date with my awesome cousin :) We talked about lots, one thing we talked about was how this deal with my Dad feels like a dream, and how so many people we know are also fighting this dream. We also talked about other situations like people with disabilities and how rough life can be at times for those with a disability (I prefer saying a difference) and their families; feelings of sadness, frustration, anger. This made me think again about how there really is no "normal" category (or at least people should not be so close-minded and selfish to think something is normal); I worked with kids with differences this summer who had more joy and spunk for life than some people who would be categorized as "normal". We can be angry at the situation brought into our bodies, but who are we to complain about the life God gas brought before us? My cousin made the point that this experience with my Dad is very humbling; thinking now, it SO is. How can I whine that this is not fair? What IS fair? What IS a normal life? There is no normal or fair life; we take what we are given and we just grab it by the horns and run with it because there is nothing else we can do. Don't ask questions, just go. When a race starts I don't ask anyone how hard this is going to be, or how it is going to end up. I just let my legs take me where the course mapped out for me goes, I follow the path and see where it ends up. Wow that was a real deep metaphor it just came off the top of my head, I am definitely saving this one! My cousin said this life is not for us anyways. So true. This life is for us to glorify God with, not to plot OUR plan for our perfect fairy tale ending.

3)"I will praise the Lord, who counsels me; even at night my heart instructs me. I have set the Lord always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body also will rest secure, because you will not abandon me to the grave, nor will you let your Holy One see decay. You have made known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand."(Psalm16:7-11)
I was doing some exercises and reading psalms, and this stuck out to me tonight. I really like the "you will fill me with joy in your presence". Honestly one of the last nights before coming home for break I was talking to a friend about this other friend of mine who has a very similar situation as my family does now. What I was saying was how impressed I am with this friend with the joy they are able to find in life, in all situations, even if we are studying all night or driving two hours at 4 am, this person has brought more energy and happiness to my life than people who are not going through what my friend is. Anyways I was telling a friend how I don't know how I would even be able to get out of bed, nevertheless smile and laugh, if I was in my friend's shoes. Well, moral of the story is that God can surprise you with the strength He stirs up in you when it is your turn to go through a rough season.