It really truly does.
But you know what would suck even more? If this messy, painful, disappointing world was all there was.
Matt 6:19-21
19 “Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. 20 But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
22 “The eye is the lamp of the body. If your eyes are healthy,[c] your whole body will be full of light. 23 But if your eyes are unhealthy,[d] your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light within you is darkness, how great is that darkness!
Little brother TayTay reminded me of a often forgotten thought-even though our Dad is not always going to be here on earth with us, this point is insignificant when we think about the eternity we get to spend with him and our Heavenly Father. I think it was taytay that told me of a sermon by Francis Chan, he held a long rope and at the end held a very small portion explaining this time on earth is minuscule in comparison to eternity.
After nearly 5 days in the hospital because of low blood oxygen levels my Dad came home with half of the hospital's toys with him-that's an exaggeration, but he does have a nifty oxygen tank. This is one of the first big things to happen since the initial diagnosis, my Dad needing oxygen at home, I thought we were over that phase? But as I always describe it, this cancer battle is a vicious circle. However at the moment the circle is pausing in the vicious part
The Dr said on Tuesday that he thinks my Dad's cancer is progressing.
Sigh.
After hearing for nearly 3 years that the cancer is "stable", this was one of the top worse news items we have heard. It is frustrating realizing his body can't fight forever and that we as humans can only do so much.
God's heart is breaking as this story pans out.
But He also knows the end, and we can trust that He is holding our hand no matter what is to come.
My prayers, and I hope that you will join me, are: that my Dad can have one "normal" day before Jesus takes him, one day he can feel strong and can do something he loves that he normally cannot. Also, that he can make it to Taytay's graduation, we prayed he would make it to mine and he made it to 2 of mine so I believe with God's miraculous strength this is possible.
so for the moment I am trying to live like there is no tomorrow, this song came on the radio at 5:20am this morning as I drove to stanford and I think it is going to become a frequently played song in the beems..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=83R-XQhDUWg
Praying.
ReplyDelete