ha! i think i am mature...

So wednesday night was the "kickoff" for small groups at the church 'young adult' group I have joined, first off since when am I a young adult?!

In the midst of chatting and bonding with our groups (me and 3 other girls who are absolutely lights, and full of joy and love and wisdom and God just put us together perfectly, we all want to love each other, grow closer to God, and have a safe, fun, bonding tie between us-it is going to be great, all I prayed for, lets just we all already teared up), the pastor was saying something about how spiritual maturity is when we stop fighting, ignoring, complaining etc. about the circumstances in our lives and just say "ok God, Ill go with it" and we make the best of it because it is His will. As he was saying that, I think I matured several years in my own eyes. He said this right after my group went around telling each other kinda where we were at with God, and mine went something along the lines of this (I normally don't tell people right away about my Dad, but they had all really opened up so I went for it) "well, me and God are great, I'm learning and growing a lot lately because my Dad has cancer....it has been a rollercoaster of emotions dealing with this, but I have never been mad at God, I am just understanding that this is our reality, and lately I have also realized that I should feel empowered that God is choosing to use us through this..." and to explain more...

Monday I was reading before work and I connected the dots and realized that actually this experience for us is one that shows that God believes in our trust and submission to His will. I feel so inadequate at times since my relationship with God really started beginning of my 1st year of college, but after hearing that spiritual maturity explanation, I was thinking, hm I guess I am ready for it. I mean my parents are for sure, my Dad came home the other day bouncing off the walls reading Ephesians 3:20. How many people do you know who are dealing with sucky stuff come home after working since 6am exploding with the good news of God? gosh, we are chosen for such a time as this, and I would say we are being pretty spiritually mature about it.

Thank you God, for choosing to use us and not those who do not know you or would not glorify you through it.